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Sugar and caffeine driven posts contain several explicit material not recommended for readers below 10.
Emotional dump and all sorts of garbage down below.
Because in silence, I find no rejection.
And in silence, no one owns you but me."
- It was a tad bit creepy message to receive. But it really tugged my heartstrings.
Because I think I'm a little rusty.
LOL.This was a little troublesome to write. If I ever finish this, this will be the longest thing I've ever written.
Crossposted in Fictionpress.com.
( INTRO )
I can't believe I am liking him more than Toma now.
*exhale*

"Every atom of me missed him."
Apparently, aside from the toxic college stuffs - I still have the luxury to read books and mangas.
Of the 50+ GB of Manga in my hard disk - I think Kare Kano is still the best.
And who doesn't get sick of smut? Smut is weird. Heck, even shoujo is getting old. Give me something good to read. (I prefer Fiction - but heck, I despise textbooks, photocopied handouts, notes, test papers, test scores...never mind.)
**
Lame excuse:
"Busy ako."
This excuse is so abused. It's a lame escape for people who doesn't want to care. Call me the mother of all hasty generalizations or whatever fallacies - I don't care. Anyway, I'm too busy.
The addage, "When there's a will, there's a way..", has been rotting and depreciating like a single piece of wisdom that no one seems to be bothered with.
Seriously though, when you really want to do something.. You'll trash every piece of shit that makes you busy - and do what you really want to do.
And, yes I know of priorities - but, all priorities can be set aside for a while. It's not like your brain cells are going to sleep forever when you do things that you don't prioritize.
And me? I love doing things that make no sense - just like that.
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You know pressure? It is the feeling of being dragged to your saturation point. You have no other option but to move forward - and do whatever you can.
Some works best under pressure, some don't. Some cringe at the slightest weight of responsibility.
Me? I am a person of tolerance. But, now is different. I can handle road splits, road accidents and whatever. But I'm deathly afraid of bridges. (And yes, I am talking in allegories.) Because when you are crossing a bridge - at some point in time, you'll succumb to fear - and haste your way to the other end.
Somehow, you'll end up missing some of the scenes. Whatever scene that is.
My goal in life - is to cross those bridges - in my own pace. No matter how long it takes.

Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle (finally...) ends at Chapter 232. I'm confused more than ever. Nothing made me more confused than this. Not even advanced accounting, not even Sir Bobadilla, not even Maam SA, not even Papa P.
I'd be happy to see CLAMP with a happy ending - and a less confusing storyline.
If anyone can explain to me the whole manga... you'll make me happy. Hahahaha.
Yay for Heath Ledger and Johnny Depp.
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting
Loveless - Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest
Loveless - Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Loveless - Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire
Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
Loveless - Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely
Loveless - Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice
Stress.
If I see people suddenly donning Korean looks now, I'll puke. Seriously.
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Lord, if only one of these bishounens that I'm fangirling now could come alive for me. I'll gladly marry them. Hello, Cinderella Complex + SMUT. hahahaha.
II. OLD
Who knows how much is too much? My life must have been so dull now that I lack a saturation point. I have a major Peter Pan Complex now - it's like time is draining away so fast. Gah, I feel so old. I feel so old. OLD OLD OLD.
III. Facebook
Look here, Facebook made me neglect my Friendster, Multiply, LJ, DeviantArt accounts. That was like a major achievement. Who knew flash games could be so addictive?
IV. Review
Hey, I'm taking my CPA board on October 2010 - but I have to reserve for review classes this early. Like I said a few paragraphs before, I feel so old.
I watched Bleach and I am finishing Code Geass. What on earth am I going to do in the College of Accountancy...
Gah, I'm so lazy. Blahblahblah.
Since being the spendthrift the I naturally am - me, Katrina, Joy and Riel ate at a Japanese Restaurant, sang Japanese songs (with my nonexistent and Katrina's rusting Japanese reading skills), watched a supposedly horror film, ate ice cream, played at the arcades....
which eventually left me with an empty wallet.
Anyway, my point is - Kumyoung Karaoke machine (the ones used in Timezone) has a selection for Japanese songs.
The Random List
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Movie + Good Food + Good Drinks + Good Music + Good Company.
I love my friends.
I hope sana sa sunod sumama na kayo. I miss seeing all of us together. :)
Don't dare ask. I bite. I really do.
I don't make sense, do I?
Oh God. I'm tired.
There's always something awful on getting sick. Like how you are always on the constant search for tissues and all.
I am spending lunch with Katrina and Joy lately, that turned out really well. They actually can mingle and mix well. Lunch time, actually, is a breather in the long hours that Integrated Accounting demands. I am learning, through hook and crook, Discipline. Something I should have tried to learn a few years back.
Last day on May 20th. May 23rd StarCity. We're finally having a vacation.
Sorry for the lack of consistency. That's something I must learn as well.
And no, I'm not at the risk of debarment. Just one subject. Just one subject. Financial Accounting. Mula noon, hanggang ngayon - ikaw pa rin.
I've been enjoying Arashi because of AnS. Sho is so cute.
Currently, I'm on the verge of watching Soul Eater. It looks rather promising.
And my life finally settled down, life without bullshit is heaven.
And caffeine, I think, does not work on me anymore.
Oh, and I had another haircut - I had to fix that freaky Korean bangs. So there. God, stop me from cutting my hair.
(Yay. This be my 2nd HK trip.)

(LOL Korean bangs + korean peace sign)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YpAO7Vuux
